As I left the hotel this morning, I knew that I was going to have today and tomorrow morning be my last days of this wonderful Burning Woman Journey. I will have driven across the country for 22 days and have been in 12 states, including Illinois where I am beginning and ending the experience. I was struggling ending it because I was thinking I had to go “home” and the reality is that I don’t have a home right now. So, I had to accept that I had a starting point and the end should be at the same place.
So, this morning was a beautiful morning with the sun shining and the sky that perfect shade of blue. For the first time since I began this journey, my wardrobe was finally in sync with the weather. I was able to wear jeans, a light weight shirt and my flip flops. I could have gotten more exotic and actually worn a pair of sandals that I brought along, but that would have kept me from adding those to my list of things I packed that I never used.
I took the back roads from Iowa towards Chicago and I could tell I was getting over the need to capture every moment as I mainly saw fields that were full of water. I hope the farmers in Iowa and Illinois can still get crops in this year since it looks like there are “ponds” in the fields rather than freshly plowed fields.
I also noticed that my thoughts were around summarizing things vs creating new experiences. I don’t think that means I am done being an adventurous, naughty, and a live in the moment girl, but that I need to start on the next path that affords me the opportunity to be all those things.
So, here I am just outside of Chicago, not wanting to cross that line because I know that means I have completed my mission and have to ‘burn the effigy’. So tomorrow, I will cross that line, do a single finger salute to what used to be and then sit up a little taller in my car seat (and no. that is not a child like one) and say to myself, “You are one fucking fantastic woman and there is no stopping you. Live your dreams love your passion and let life lead you and bring you to the Regina you are meant to be.”
And truth be told………..all this is occurring on my last day of employment. Isn’t it good when you can hug yourself hello as you are kissing the job goodbye? (did I say that outloud?) Oh, what the hell……….what are they going to do, fire me?”
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Well, I must admit that I teared up a bit as I read your last blog. I am sad that your journey is over....but excited to see you again. I have really enjoyed following your adventures. I know that it really isn't the end of your journey. I am sure you have many exciting adventures ahead of you. I wish you would consider continuing your blog...that way we can stay connected and I can be entertained at the same time. You really are a good writer.
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Well, I guess it was always going to end. That is the sad thing about a journey, there is always an end. Hopefully you have found a little bit out about yourself and the west. So maybe you can hold onto this for a while and remeber that while all things must come to an end it doesn't mean that you can't start a new journey tommorrow. Now you get to start the next chapter in life. Imagine if we could all live every day as if it was a journey of it's own. Come back to Michigan and see us, then we can all get ready for the next installment of your new burning woman life.
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