Growing, Living and Loving - It's a Good Life

I have been trying to get on line for the past four days, and have stressed on not getting my final post and put closure to the blog.

Go figure, something that was so much fun while I was traveling has become a pressure thing now that I am trying to get back to some semblance of normalcy. Heck, I don't even want 100% normal, but am not sure how normal I am ready to be.

I discovered that life goes on, with or without you....and that is a good thing. I have discovered that I keep going, no matter how much time, thoughts and activities have passed....and that too is a good thing.

At the end of the day, it is all good and all you need is to make up your mind that is how you want and expect it to be. And good for me is full of peace, contentment, excitement, and joy. Sometimes it is over the top goodness that you can't believe you are really experiencing. And other times it is just solid goodness because the sun is shining, the kids are playing, the friends have called and you are thinking about someone special.

So what I do know, is that I have had those over the top days, those solid days and those days that I have had to change the way I was looking at things so that I could find it a good day after all. And on my Burning Woman Journey, I was able to look at some of those past days, deal with the current ones and realize that I can't control nor do I want to, the future ones.

At the end of the Burning Man Fest, the image of a man is lit on fire to symbolize the end and the beginning of going forward back into the world. And while I am not going to burn myself in effigy, I have burned some of those nagging negative views that I don't want to hang onto or be a part of.

I have eliminated 24 books out of my life that I bought thinking that if I knew the secret in them, I could be a 'good' person and have this 'good' life. I have gotten rid of 16 audio books - and the majority were about money - thinking that if I had the magic formula for making sure I had lots of money, it would be a good life.

So, for me, getting rid of those things is putting an end to trying to "fix", "change", "improve" or "do over" the person I am. I realize that I like the woman I am becoming....and I hope I never stop becoming. It is a good life if you continue to grow, live and love in yourself and with others.